INSPIRATIONAL POETRY BY RITA

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Gaze

 

Back in time, I saw you standing steadfast over there...

gazing at me envisioning our future we once shared,

missing the moments when we we didn't see eye to eye,

a glimpse of our future too difficult to envision so we shied,

away from depth of understanding as this was in our way,

of connecting at the core and care as it would make us stay,

in that place of discord and disharmony as we fought on,

enlisting space and time to take away, not shine a light upon,

our different ways, beguiling interests, in you and in me,

further we strayed, lost on our way with belligerent uncare ,

it made me lose my sense of self, filled with momentous fear,

seeking to find myself, charging forward renewed with power,

as this new belonging to life, fresh like a belated bloomed flower,

with light and nurture, these things strive to surface and survive,

we find ourselves seeking for success in our endless ego drive,

though, it isn't in our longing for external pleasures we seek,

but an internal fire that needs stoking and not made weak,

and in our letting go, and in renewing our faith and trust in life,

she leads us firmly by the hand - yet still allows us our strife,

we must be content in the knowing that we all fail and fall,

but by this we must learn, how to live and follow God's call.

 

 

Mind The Media

 

"Read all about it!" screams radio, TV, laptop, mobiles and news; our bibles...

bombarded are we by daily rampant accounts of infamy - praising false idols,

we toil and toss between our desire to indulge and also to remain unaffected,

blindly we manoeuvre, cultivating popular thoughts, accept and be accepted,

and though we strive for peace and ignorance, we side one way or another,

right or left, sway here and there, descend into muddied, murky, media water...

wade through torrents of feeds, tweets, likes and puzzling people discussions,

where our minds sift and then digest feeds of powerful political persuasions,

yet these distract our inner knowing, this we have within our grasp and control,

allow yourself to emerge, awake from your slumber, arise dear sleeping soul.

 

 

The Dog and The Hummingbird

'Ferrell' was the name of the dog, disobedient to almost most, he rescued a dying hummingbird and became a loving host, and a friend, an unlikely ally to this fragile, delicate little bird, his kind said "It's disrespectful for us and it IS truly absurd!" "we must kill, maim, be aggressive, as this IS our animal nature", "anything else we condemn and you have failed us vile creature!" but the dog didn't bow down to those threats nor did it deter him, he continued to accept and behold the bird as his cousin, his kin, once the bird recovered it returned to the wind and sky high above, for the conquering of all that hatred was the strength from dogs love.

 

 

Human

How does one know how to measure and trust in his happiness, is it man's ability to overcome the many states of his sadness, And if we place words and statements and let ego be demanding, We perpetuate and keep our vision focused on heavy misunderstanding... collect your courage and find your heart as you need strength to feel, As we seal our fate with the choices we make, look at yourself, be real, in acceptance that we humans wrestle with imperfections, we mustn't judge, in allowing anger and disturbance into our truth, we hold and thus begrudge, yet, in holding tightly to things that we abhor and critique along with blame, we allow our hearts to grow cold and find that the thing we want to reclaim, the love and peace, we leave in the silence of the dark place where we retreat, until, in letting go of the old and those thoughts that lead you here, no defeat, that all our decisions are based on what we have experienced and know, in release and letting the hurt dissolve, the love in us evolves, and we grow.

 

 

Living

"What is this feeling of deep dissatisfaction in our ordinary human lives, is it our ignorance of spiritual dwelling thus our earthly, egoistic demise, or is it in the value of materialistic haves and wants to be this and that, and not in the virtue of our vision, we once believed the world was flat... given this beautiful life we live, we seem to fill it with excuses and things, and only when we have these taken away, we see the truth that it brings, as our inner knowing, must lead the way, hearing our voice, sound of all, the thing that unites us, is the source of all our joy, and our graceless fall, to this place we call home, we are visitors in the land of natural plenty, given to us to preserve, respect and to progress, instead breeds envy, the competition & greed in me and you, gives rise to ugly points of view, the unjust, the opinions and the hatred within, all a ruse, just the frustration, ....for we long to connect to be true to our nature ­ have love for the others, not long we will detach and return home, to our spiritual sisters and brothers.

 

 

Girl

There was once a wild, innocent and sweet little girl,
who loved life so much she liked to dance & to twirl,
but found she got attention from too many strangers,
who found her dance alluring, and she sensed danger,
so soon enough she stopped her pure, free expression,
and fell into herself and froze with deep, dark depression,
until one day true love came to find her and open she did,
once more to find her heart thaw and dance, she once hid,
it came back with a fury, such passion and unable to hide,
once again free, she felt a roar swell up from deep inside,
no longer a prisoner of herself, or others, she was so sure,
the path she took was love, through darkness she'd endured.

 

 

Being

 

When we fall from our place that we created with much considerable effort,

we grasp at thoughts, feelings and those emotions that distract and divert,

our attention to why we fell, to what we learnt and to where we shall now go,

from this confusion and clouded situation, do we blame or do we say...no,

for every winding path, dead end or edge of the cliff, gives your sense of self,

the more of life you seek and serve you may find a deeper purpose yourself,

and to the why's.. the what's..the where do we go, the faith in life's direction,

so in this if you look within and glance without fear, you see your own reflection,

and humanity may look back at you and we see that we are one suffering race,

as we are looking at obtaining self satisfying ways and delaying ageing face,

and forgetting the Creator in all this and the meaning of his Love for us and others,

our responsibility in this is to accept all human beings as our lost & lonely brothers.

 

Imperfection

 

How does one know how to measure and trust in happiness,

is it man's ability to overcome the many states of his sadness,

but if we place words and statements and let ego be demanding,

and if we keep our vision only towards our heavy misunderstanding...

collect your courage and find your heart, you need strength to feel,

we seal our fate with the choices we make, look at yourself, be real,

in acceptance that we humans wrestle with imperfections, we mustn't judge,

in allowing anger and disturbance into our truth, we hold and thus begrudge,

yet, in holding tightly to things that we abhor and critique along with blame,

we allow our hearts to grow cold and find that the thing we want to reclaim,

the love and peace, we leave in the silence of the dark place we retreat to,

until, in letting go of the old and the thoughts that lead you here and knew,

that all our decisions are based on what we have experienced and know,

in release and letting the hurt dissolve, the love in us evolves, and we grow.


 

Moment

 

There was a moment when i fell within,

this place of lost with peoples voices yelling, unable to quieten,

the noise of the sadness searing and screaming through my hurt self,

sickening my body with expression of hurt and anger that i had shelved,

within boxes stored in my minds room, occupying time space and imposed cage,

where you and I used to love each other and now we cant get on the right page,

to help our souls to the heart centre, to hold each others love and hear our hearts,

with this we might have had a chance to be more but now we have drifted apart,

but this we do not deny equal partnership in denial and dense emotional chaos,

words harshly spoke, meaning mystified, love challenged and love unequivocal,

where I had held you so distantly, as to not to hurt me so deeply, I had rules,

to protect my vulnerabilities, sensitivities but somehow found strength to debate,

though, all i wanted was for a companion, a friend, able to read my pain and relate,

to help one another, be better, be more loving and together forwards we should go,

but here I am now wondering how I let my marriage suffer and thus woefully so,

I am sorry... I had lots to learn though I hold you in esteem with love still,

and in my heart you exist with thanks for all your wisdom and your strong will,

a man of strength, passion and a powerful mind so much striving for success,

in all things and you will be happy and loved, as we learn to live to our fullness...


 

Veritas

 

The memories that haunt you also pin you down,

to your dark place, where my light tries to surround,

your heart and only if you could rise above it to be free,

of all those thoughts that bind you are fruitless can't you see,

it is only you and your limitations that keep you from embracing me,

accept the existence of God and allow his loyal love to be near,

that which is with you in a never-ending guiding force; but do not fear,

stay with me until you are ready to begin to connect our energies,

stand next to me and we shall together create new memories.


 

Persist

 

If we wish to keep our misconceptions of life hidden away,

from those that may help us to see that we don't have to stay,

in that immersion of loneliness which holds many to much misery,

the want to improve our external conditions without internal discovery,

where the issues lie untouched for fear what digging them will unearth,

the realisations that rationality can only take us so far, we need to rebirth..

stillness creates clarity, piercing through the darkness and into the light,

we all move along life's many paths seeking peace and loves insight,

tell yourself, your real self, to stay in those places of deep discomfort,

for these trials come to you in driving you to shed your egos comfort,

that trickery distracts our priori knowledge as we lead a life of habit,

circulating around our self and delving not within, the false way does sit,

at the core of our inaction, blinded by our version and not what truly exists,

the inner child seeks guidance and truth, thus the true self rises and persists.



 

Veer

 

As we scale the enormity of challenge with sudden vicissitude,

we sense our beings apprehension with an impetuous attitude,

though armed with our faith in our purpose and higher wisdom,

we seek guidance in the universal power and believe in altruism,

but we find that we strive towards our certain future, we may veer,

and off we go on an alternate plan, accept and so with the flow we near,

the plan, not ours, made before we came to this divine place of life,

and in this place we learn to be, with soul and heart, away from strife,

for all these feelings hide beneath, undermining what we know is really true,

the union in life and all that awakens, when love ignites between me and you.

 

Restart

 

In our search, we find distractions in our call for our souls purpose,

we wrestle with certain truths and so we lose trust, to our disservice,

tempt ourselves in worldly trivia, surface satisfactions and egoisms,

we breathe in the gain from our toil with capitalist worthy ambitions,

though far, far away the soul peers into our dark legacy of lost loyalties,

watch, see and feel, where it is that you have disgraced your heart,

and with compassion and unconditional love we may rise and restart.


 

Sadness

 

Twas was not the right time to hold onto and so we released the thing called us,

in the heart of you were too many fences trying to keep you in and thus,

we disconnected, splintered into many human faces of relinquished hope,

for it was not ours to give, but ours to hold and ours to embrace and cope,

with all the challenges in love and emerging difficulties in us and so,

with all we had left were distractions, monetary and logical exchange, and we,

decided that this alone and arguments thereafter, deemed it Adam and Eve,

departed as reality imparted, wise insight and indecent exposure of our ways,

and in this wisdom and deep folly, wanting to right the wrong as scripture says,

that only man can misdirect his logic and misconduct his path towards happiness,

and in that search and in that descent, he finds that only he has created his sadness.


 

Choice

 

Sometimes through the pain we justify our intentions and intensely feel,

that our cause, our choice was the only way forwards and this to us was real,

and in this causation the casualties left behind in this sudden searing wake,

felt abandoned, unloved and all the emotional turmoil we breathe and intake,

our old life, our stillness, our longing, wise and true, was this misunderstanding?

insight and the truth is caught between two worlds, the real between me and you,

and in this knowledge that you surely have gained, did it give you wisdom too?

as I see and as I feel, myself and my climb towards my expanding soulful self,

is this plight towards our purpose and goodness the path to be true to myself,

does it mean the love has gone and disappeared to the reservoir where we hide,

and in this place of infinite we, the realm where consciousness and us collide,

to find we exist in this collective chaos of confusion, misdirection and the why,

do we hide in the advancement of modernity and suffer the path as we pacify,

our needs, soulful nurture, the food of love to soothe the face of uncertainty,

and so, we advance without awareness of the need of love to be graced eternally.

 

Dream

 

In my heart there is only you... and I hear you whisper my name quietly,

beckoning me closer to where your arms are open and we touch tenderly,

was I dreaming of you when you appeared as we embraced this love so new,

where we battle to disentangle the ghosts of old love, old loss, and we knew,

only to go forth with faith and fearless conviction for our entwined fates,

and in unravelling of all things buried deep we find that true love awaits.

 

Guidance

 

When we heed the call of our ancestors who descended before,

we hear our hearts, intuit our life and use our minds to explore,

this land we inhabit, take for granted or impart love and capabilities,

to the wonder and existence of Gods magic and all the possibilities,

guided to a higher dimension where our true self inspires wisdom in us.

the parallels in the Universe, dynamics between light and dark and thus,

guide or retreat the sensitive soul who will meet challenges on their way,

in knowing, all is revealed in one lifetime or many for those who stay,

on the path to knowledge and true understanding that life is gift with love,

to all those whom choose to open and embrace the world below and above.


 

Mindful

 

How do you show love and know that it is enough for her and is true,

are you only satisfying your needs, when her world envelops you,

when your attention is away from her, do you know to give her time?

not only in boredom, or when you are alone, to be generous... not i'm,

too busy to send... moments in time... love across the vast deep seas,

and if you know that love is simple and doesn't have rules, listen please...

take heed in finding truth in deeds, truth in seeing that we have needs,

mine like yours to find another, but for me to find that thoughtful other,

I give my heart and hear your mind, wherever it takes you, you may find,

until you understand womankind, yours might fly away to leave man behind.

 


 

Peace

 

If only he could see how much life has to give,

and to find happiness in moments, those we live,

how he finds relaxation in his sea and in spearing,

and those times where he can be himself... hearing,

only nature, gives peace to him... to find his centre,

and in finding it he has found that truth can enter.

 

Rust

 

I close my eyes and begin imagining you,

Stay with me whilst I uncreate and undo‎...

My unwakefulness as I enlighten my mind,

As I allow my divine light to emerge and I find,

Your heart accepting mine, hold me and my hand, 

Disperse that fear, have faith and understand,

We are connected, wise and are omnipresent,

Aware that we have love with mutual consent...

Though if we relinquish our love to disintegrate with time,

And allow material life to block the progress as we climb,

then loves descent without nurture, will slowly start to rust,

and our connection will erode and eventually turn to dust,

As I turn ‎away from you and us with selfish disregard,

for the love given was a gift and one to cherish and guard,

What we fear affects our love as we bury our feelings inside,

this union we came to know deep loss through lucifers guide,

with regret and confusion as to why our paths did us unite,

and no understanding of the choices we made in hindsight.

 

Crossing


I close my eyes and begin imagining you,

Stay with me whilst I uncreate and undo‎,

My unwakefulness as I enlighten mind,

As I allow my light to emerge and I find,

Your heart accepting mine, me and my hand, 

Disperse the fear, have faith and understand,

We are connected, wise and are omnipresent,

Aware that we have love with mutual consent,

Though if we relinquish our love to disintegrate with time,

And allow material life to block the progress as we climb,

Our loves descent and without nurture, will slowly rust,

Our connection will erode and eventually turn to dust,

As I turn ‎away from you and us with selfish disregard,

The love given was a gift and one to cherish and guard,

What we fear affects our love as we bury our feelings deep inside,

in this union, the soul was suffering as we came to know our truth in loss,

knowledge and insight where we ended and the why our paths did cross.

 

Plan

 

When we cross that line and not look back,

‎We leave the pain that threw our heart off track, 

Only forwards we go neither with regret nor remorse, 

We forge ahead and allow life to run it's course,

Where memory serves as master ‎to our changing state,

So as not to be slave to our mind and clear our emotional‎ slate,

We come to this place of acceptance of the ever changing plan,

And with this peace in heart we strive to become a balanced human.

 

Sublime

 

If you are open to my love then come find me,

as I am standing there awaiting your heart to see,

and if you allow your spirit to soar with mine,

we shall rise above desire and into the sublime,

open to the sensuality that exists when we reconnect,

uninhibited by fear, my body tells you how I feel and I resurrect,

intense sensations and emerging depths and surges that surround,

us and our awakening and I tell you that true love has been found,

and we hold onto this and each other and are drunk on happiness,

we build a wall of trust to protect and contain our love and all that is .

 

Been

 

Where have you been and what depths have you risen from?

 

As you look behind at the mistakes and challenging past liaisons,

you may find release in knowing everything was designed with reasons,

so that you may learn and forgive your friends, loved ones and strangers,

as they come to you in presence and teach us our folly, and so endangers,

your mind alliance - distraction from your true path to purpose and way to God,

where you dance around the voice within, discouraged by egos internal nod,

what did you do when you chose to go alone and forced your own way,

did you find yourself and your truth, or did you get lost and full of dismay?

keep the strength and resolve for this will help in listening for guidance,

it is and always has been there for you, and will gently lead you into silence,

stop, to feel, your heart speaks its truth and wakens upon internal reflection,

here you will find understanding with quiet knowing, followed with true intention.

 

Faith

 

‎If we could clearly see our path with its twists, turns, not straight, 

We would remove those limitations which have been placed in our mind state, 

The cause of  conflict as we make choices out of fear instead of faith,

Towards progress or regress, keeping our beliefs stubbornly safe, 

Now allow the solutions to come and overcome those perceived difficulties, 

We are powerful beings guiding our life, and are creating  all the possibilities....


 

Wave

 

We swim on the surface in the big blue sea who takes us into his being,

we dive into the emotion full depths, feeling the strength and believing,

that we are one with nature and allow the touch and caress of her love,

and open ourselves and surrender to the feeling of connectedness below and above,

and let go of this sensation of of separateness between you and me and us,

to a place where we understand the community and inherited human crisis,

the capability to embrace this duality in us, acceptance of our imperfections,

the want to forgive and enable our spiritual charge to light bias assumptions,

this and more, willingness to find and explore, our deepest fears and misgivings,

in order to illuminate our darkness, expand our awareness and see our blessings.


 

Interlude

 

It is only in the open that we can clearly see,

the reason that life has put us together, you and me,

in times past we had forgotten and forsaken our promise,

to return to our true self without distraction of ego and busyness,

here we err on the side of caution, without it we would unearth,

an avalanche of errors made with ignorance and unable to rebirth,

until souls end, lessons learnt and integrated for this recent lifetime,

we will return again, karma reigns king for all humankind with time,

no escape only interlude as we navigate the territory at every turn,

until we are able to cast aside our burdens inherited as we learn,

for we continue to blindly soar above the work contracted below,

as we search for meaning in our daily lives we mistakenly show,

weak traits of doubt and delusion as we struggle for soul survival,

our intent for happiness lost in cyber-space technological revival,

we have gained immense pleasure from our modern self serving ways,

but further we part from our origins, natural and minimal simple days,

where we were content just you and me, with our togetherness and knew,

with our connected values and principles, life was good and we grew.


 

Fallen


In the beginning, from the stars we emerge,

Falling to earthly existence with others we converge,

Glimpses of our ‎true nature and ego projection,

We search for meaning, a longing for ‎connection,

Forgotten the lightness of being and soul bases,

‎Delving into dark passages, dwelling in dark places,

‎Look up in remembrance towards our home afar,

Seeking recognition and knowing of who we are,

Still mind reaches there, the place close at hand,

True hearts see happiness wherever they land,

For it is not getting back to what you are seeking,

It is acceptance of yourself and all you are, being.


 

Reveal


He has to dream, for his vision to come true,

coming closer to the inner truth within life for you,

and a clearer understanding of the task ahead,

with knowledge and wisdom with heart we are lead,

stay open to life as all plans will slowly reveal,

that man can only see so far, limiting what is real,

embracing heart and mind we enable our imagination,

he who stays here will reap the rewards of true revelation.

 

Christ

 

Why is this fear so very near to the surface as I feel frail,

I am not Christ and do not put myself upon his cross with solid nail,

I do not pity myself or my situation - at least that is what I think,

though deep down in this despair, my heart is threatening to sink,

down, where the bravest of us will never go near, this feeling of old,

surrounded by darkness and deserted by the light of day and its so cold,

even the searing heat cannot warm me to my prospects that await,

though I must have bravery and a fierce heart, as the lioness takes the bait,

as with the control I cannot condone and the way you hold me tight,

it seems that one might even sense that this is too close and I might bite,

I protect and possess knowledge of divine mystery and intuition may,

enlighten and encourage, the you that I have known nearly in every way,

that this person that now exists, in his ignorant state of dammed bliss,

missing the point, the pointer discouraged, redundant infinite in all this,

so I feel a loss, a sadness that does not seem to disappear,

for you have taken me up the hill and rolled me back to reappear,

myself and my awakening, for this I thank you and all this was a misunderstanding,

for it was my undoing and doing to us, so now with love we are simply parting.

 

Centre

 

From the moment I returned to this place deep inside, 

I delved into the feeling where truth and inspiration reside,

Unlocking my potential to see things as they are,

Gazing deeply into eternity - myself a rising star,

In the universe we see the planets in natural alignment, 

Ourselves at the centre confusion confounds excitement, 

For when we clear the fog of ‎pity and despair,

it is you who always knew that god and his secrets were to be found here,

The entire realm of what exists and all that can be...

which entices the soul in you and in me!


 

Ruin

 

Here I bury thy head in my dirt ridden hands,

for I'm digging up the past trying to remember where I stand,

in this union made of harsh light and dizzying day,

where depth was internal, caged and alas disobeyed,

I shrank in my disposition, my wants and needs disappeared,

as I allowed you to take me where my vision sharply veered,

to a place unfamiliar, desolate of joy and good feelings,

my god I have fallen to this place of darkness and I am reeling,

why did i do this.. for now is only what I have, the past just memories,

left behind mistakes, learnt and understood vague frivolities,

though now I see clearly, my trodden path not lest forgot,

for now I am responsible, no distractions or romantic besot,

it is me that is here and on my purpose hear me as I say,

it was not only you and your very difficult and fearful ways,

i am standing now in this creation of us made to ruin,

we tried to connect, to learn and keep on lovin,

and I do not blame or condone, that this union was our own,

though I let you go and set you free...

as it is now all about me.

 

Gaze

 

Back in time, I see you standing there..

gazing at me envisioning our future we now share,

but missing the moments we didn't see eye to eye,

a glimpse of a future too difficult to envision truth so we shy,

away from depth of understanding as this was in our way,

of connecting at the best and most so it would make us stay,

in that place of discord and disharmony as we fought on,

enlisting space and time to take away, not shine a light upon,

our different ways, beguiling interests, you and in me,

further we strayed, lost on our way with belligerent uncare ,

it made me lose my sense of self made with momentary fear,

but finding myself, changed and charging with power,

this new belonging to life like a belated bloomed flower,

with light and nurture, these things surface and survive,

we find ourselves striving for success in our business drive,

though, for me it is not in our external pleasures we seek,

but an internal fire that needs stoking and not made weak,

but our letting go, and renew our faith and trust in life,

as she leads us firmly yet allows us our strife,

though be content in the knowing that we all fail and fall,

but by this we must learn, how to live and follow God's call.


 

Everest

 

If I exist in your place tonight, 

the end of mine, connect and relight,

this treacherous path not planned our plight,

as we sailed seas of doubt, confusion with might,

and this thunderous vision, committing to us,

our flailing detachment ended thus,

no more can I bear not being myself,

in this union made of education and wealth,

I am more, not less, you see me puddle not depth,

I cry for understanding not able to keep breath,

sinking down, where is my saviour?

Is it me, myself and my behaviour...

change is forced upon our race,

our ever changing human face,

where i begin, clear and persist,

that I start again, with faith, and I climb Everest.


 

Too Late

 

...Its a little too late to emphasize,

our gifts to the world when we try to organise,

our thoughts and mindset to that which takes order,

where we would otherwise allow life to take us to shorter,

routes to our path, complex and simplified, can we demystify,

go deeper and submit responses that satisfy,

our soul urge, direct and ready for emergence,

or are we stuck to admit our selfish agenda and ignorance,

what must we feel to allow guidance and direction,

to find a way to appease our deep sense of longing of connection,

to the state we clamber and cling onto,

this is real as the day to day things we do,

ah, wait and see how things turn out,

as the universe gives to us choice, without a doubt!

 

Life

 

Sacred be the text that we discover and decipher,

for only me and only you find what is ours as a well wisher ,

to dig so deep, uncover unsightly soil and things that travel underneath,

the veils so thinly placed upon our knowledge and understanding is  but a sheath,

placed here and there, dispatched discontent, deliberate rise to raise the bet,

for when we shall demist the meaning of our existence here or will you let,

our unconscious desire lead you to constant state of daily and deferred delusion,

as here you will fall into a cocoon closed and blindly led superficial confusion,

this i cannot allow, us to drift, so close to the source and surface yet repelled,

for our fear of closeness and clarity must seem too overwhelming and we dwelled,

within we guarded closely, i open you not, it must be you to overcome this knot,

of tightly reigned thoughts, feeling and emotions not mine but lifes get & got,

lots of experiences entwined and tangled, you will cut through this and more,

as life gets clearer your choices are yours and yours alone this is for sure,

the more we entangle with others, we forget what is ours and this is not real,

I believe in you and trust in life we are here to take part in life and feel.

 

Nature

 

It grows unapparent till through the darkness into the light and man,

its beauty surpasses perfection which only nature can ,

through human destruction, constant change, environmental decay,

though flowers, fruit and creatures regroup and occurrence made annually - just ok,

and just for now, if we don't protect them somehow, perish their lives and ours,

co-existence is crucial, evolution made possible earth and man coincide,

to create wondrous and monstrous creations, magnificent and maleficent reside,

in us and nature, true to being restricted mindset and madness - ego

the flower seeks purity for its being is dependent on cooperation and though,

we see it clearly the need to be, the king of our castle, mighty strong and wealthy,

many fail as they see it only the one, who conquers and creates life greedily,

be still in the heart, hear natures call, she sees you in earnest, fears and all,

truth will appear as you take time to hear, her calling you closer and  feel small,

as you become wiser erase your ways to control and you will find,

that most of your problems the answers you will find deep in your mind,

there you will free your need to take life far to hastily,

and relax and be guided your future is awaiting, positively!

 

You

 

The world parts, and the understanding begins,

to where the cracks are and what happens when love opens,

our boundaries, our misgivings, our opinions, our undoings,

where our lives collide with the occurrence of fate and her inklings ,

of loves wishful guidance, strength and offerings,

for us to see, hear and walk connected to life's raw dealings,

our need for heartfelt truth, sight intuit our process future and present,

thankful gestures, true and kind, sitting here now I, my feelings lament,

on you and us as we part undeterred, from our path grounded in heart and earth,

but our spirits righteous and ready to heady heights we soar, 

thank you for your heart, your mind and those emotions difficult to thaw,

enables us to sense how our life altered as we create new life and law,

i love you and always will with respect and understand you I will,

for this is a road, untravelled, by us and one that we will try to stay still,

so that i can let you go on your path and wont hold your heart ransom,

though keep me close, a friend at most and know that here you are most welcome.


 

Empty

 

I guess what I have now realised from within,

is that you had placed me in an uncomfortable situation,

where i engaged and entertained family, adam and cousin,

to the point where I no longer felt valued and embraced by you,

all the family and business bowled me over and still continues,

to be more important than the sacred connection that only two people understand,

it was extinguished by a mad rush of others and push and pull i could not withstand,

lost and empty, not knowing why, despair and distractions, a closeness no more,

we gave our relationship little water, distance and feelings unexplored,

frustrations and fighting - tears fall from the place of abandoned loyalty,

mother, feet fix, business progressions, family dramas, push, pull and penalty,

for me i suffered to gain perspective, balance and certainty of your love for me,

even now, your family overwhelm, give opinions without solid understanding,

and I see you and your upbringing with rules, regulations and facts testing,

we are all growing and cannot stay still, i asked too much from your space and time,

again we are reminded that this is how we change to expand our sense of sublime,

in life and love boundaries explored, spoken fears, loved embrace - acknowledge,

alas each to our own ability to allow enlightenment in love and knowledge.


 

Foolish

 

To you, who sees me as a fool...

for not loving you as you wanted me too,

i need you to know that i loved you the way i knew how,

and too little to late change, emerging on my new path and now,

you have gone and i am left with an empty bed and life without,

a understanding of how people who are different can connect,

to each other and themselves without necessitating neglect,

whom your union created by law tied us together husband and wife,

i know we have had our share of arguments, misunderstandings and strife, 

just frustration of language and emotions changing our love and life,

for deep down our soul searches for its path in the light and seeks truth,

as you are entering this sadness to uncover yours and it seems uncouth,

but this you must trust and not blame, this is a strange and searing shame,

as i understand your decision, to  feel, apart and awake, crying our forged name,

where most of us would dwell and dissect, analyse and interject our folly and fuss,

but this is not met with wisdom, revelation and most of all the truth of thus,

your life with or without me, our love unmet our hearts weep accepting, 

an end, is just a new beginning, an emergence of the knowing self growing,

I love you and let you go, allowing you to be who you are.


 

Fray

 

The bells rang deep within the space where dark would never falter ,

a place close and pervasive, to see it would allow our minds to alter,

perception vast and innocuous, there are those whom deem it dangerous,

to delve into the world of unspoken truth, touch upon this the mysterious,

to only find that within our mind we have created our own shackles,

which not only bind the most brazen kind.. of man with the need for freedom,

but i tell you this, it is ubiquitous, the land and all its history,  

that  you may find, in your fickle mind, a narrow version of your story,

as too often we stray, blaming most on the way, our fall from our previous fate,

where we thoughtlessly prayed, wreaking of stale and untethered state,

vying for redemption of our maligned vision of our untenable situation,

we must stop and let it all go, in a way to be without our crazy insinuation,

that we are not in search of our own truth, as we are to be noble and true,

with Gods grace, and Earths undeniable support, we know where credit is due,

how bout we subside, our thoughts, emotions and mind, to a place that is yours and mine,

this place we will find, peace and maybe a glass of wine, to share and say things are working out fine.

 

Forgotten

 

For get and for got, forlorn and stop,

thinking of sights beyond and aim high at the top,

where you will be lone, sigh warm breath and jump in,

to the longing for touch, embrace and forgotten happiness within,

a place to reach, for not to is like neglecting a plant its water,

to nourish and quench your soul thirsty for belonging,

to and on this planet, our time to connect and have an understanding,

is now and on we shall go, sights ahead, hearts full and fearless, 

stay here and flourish, swim in the sea of womb like warmth & caress,

of your Mother, the earth that feeds, loves and gives daily - its endless,

Man is the wilderness, where she gives life its meaning and substance, 

and without this we will work, without fulfilment and feel his resistance,

to change, transformation, letting go of our insecure existence,

so that we may live beyond our facade, false ego and denial of spirit,

those of seek truth and tread lightly may eventually discover it, and

happy in heart, thankful in mind, giving of Self to the great Mastermind,

the Creator of us, the Universe without science, man and woman together they bind,

union and creation, here we have the beginning......

yet we still are without honour, man seeks sin, greed and killing,

still we must reside, inside and out,

with PEACE for our race, we can and cannot live without,

and only those who seek to give, lessons for our humanity,

to be remembered and revered but we must never judge or have pity,

for their chosen path is to give us light, love and remembrance, 

to what we have lost and struggle to find, in our daily decadence.




 

Realm

 

In the realm of quiet and those there who are still,

hear nature's approach in every way and open they will,

to interpret messages, receive guidance, be blessed by angels near,

to listen, pause... as you will interrupt mind flow and be unaffected by fear,

look deeply into this place of solitude, peace and stillness, 

we are meant to connect to all life seen and unknown, feel, be sightless,

question and understanding, logic and reason, allow your spirit to soar,

if not, trap your higher self in clothes and personality and hear it rage and roar.

Let not your learned mind set traps and puzzling mazes to distract,

us from the centre, leading us to wisdom, God and freedom... this is fact.

Only he who delves into the doorway of dark and hidden pathways,

will be rewarded with recognition of truth and awareness of your ways,

illuminate, eradicate desire to have it all, success and money leads us far away,

from our true self, meaning and purpose in this life,

honour and depth, honesty and love, fearless wife,

have it all and don't forget  to give thanks,

give it in large bundles daily and fear not the whether there be money in banks......

Doubt and distraction blight our progress,

forget troubling mind sets, staged folly, dis-ease and uncover this mess,

all we will find, when ready for this revelation,

if a state of being, true and ready to being your rightful navigation.

Your real self actual and alive,

eyes wide and youthful unaffected by things we strive,

for you are one and many have tried, to have in our heart,

happiness, love and a meaningful life - reincarnation is another start....

 

Thinking Tree

 

Perhaps if I were a magnificent tree you would notice and be in a awe of me,

little by little i disappear, stranger and stranger as i cannot draw you near,

perhaps its my folly, my lack of delight, but your constant companion is business even into the night.

I try to frequent my dreams, for comfort and enticement, as life is dreary, unfulfilled no wonder I hunger for excitement,

of love and beyond, connection and companionship, oh where are you hiding, have I not created a relationship,

maybe not with myself, i dwell deep under; it surges above simmering and waiting, for love to embrace me, continual wonder......

wasted, wasted wasted.

Perhaps if not a tree, I was just me, waiting for you to see, what you have got,

there you can reach for reality for there you will attain your lady there she be un-forgot....

 

POP

 

Popcorn and beer, draw me near, to a never-ending cycle,

gluttony and indulgence; I am full and repulsive, though continue to chronicle my deeds,

my greed, as i feed, my desire is a lie, though i cannot predict its un-satiable need,

the more i think, i reach for my drink and snacks are never far from my wanting,

i have to stop, its pathetic and makes my stomach pop, why ingest i detest my lack of prohibition,

at least here in my own home one cannot be party to witness my exhibition...

(and theres is no taunting!)




 

London

 

When swirling swathes of that grey colour, blankets the brightness of day, i reach inside to where i know radiance colours my way.

Off to places; rain and malaise, threaten to dampen my embrace, of everyone going about their day dismissing my smiling face.

Knowing I that they know not, today could be my last, not for disuse but for misuse, disobedient to my loving self....a line is sent to cast;

Hoping for right, catching the night, when peace descends into my core,  I cocoon into a dark belonging, my bed beacons and my thoughts are no more.... 

Silence of this world and screams of the other... I am a woman and a mother, 

No rest, no pity, quick shower and get ready, to repeat this life in our conquering city.


 

I Ask,

 

I ask, in desire to achieve, what do we leave behind as we run towards hope,

and in that want to escape bleak moments of doubt and despair, we elope,

from our thoughts that haunt us, our lingering mind that sits in deep unseeing,

though there we may emerge lotus in bloom and aware of our true state of being,

and thus are free from the binds of material drudgery and earthly addiction,

and happiness exists here, it has always been here, stay there in connection,

but with our inner unease and in ignorance and self pity we slowly realise,

that we have created our life by unloving, uncompromising ideas as we theorise,

to be right, to be egotistical, to be in control as we allow others to disempower,

us and in this feeling of relinquished helplessness we fight and hope turns sour,

and, far, far away, we have gone, to win the war we created at any cost to peace,

what path to love will you take to be with universal oneness and to feel inner ease.

I ask, in your search for your self, your true self, are you happy how life is for you,

and in importance and giving thought to life, how will you love and truly feel it too.

 

Girl

 

There was once a wild, innocent & sweet little girl,

who loved life so much she liked to dance & twirl,

but found she got attention from too many strangers,

who found her dance alluring, and she sensed danger,

so soon enough she stopped her pure, free expression,

and fell into herself and froze with deep, dark depression,

until one day true love came to find her and open she did,

once more to find her heart thaw and dance, she once hid,

it came back with a fury, such passion and unable to hide,

once again free, she felt a roar swell up from deep inside,

no longer a prisoner of herself, or others, she was so sure,

the path she took was love, through darkness she'd endured.

 

Time

Though time they say, we have not plenty got,
it is crucial to understand what I have nearly forgot,
that it is our mind that plays havoc with the why & where,
as we have to face the journey into the land of our fear,
the way forwards contains mysteries to challenge us,
thoughts and ideas which we bring to know life.. thus,
as we grow in time with age, we appear to finally see,
that the more we do and understand, we strive to be free.

 

God, Are You There?

My body is swaying with visions of Universal signs, wrestling with my mind,
I am falling, towards my doubt, towards my misunderstanding, and here I find,


release of my idle, aimless mind, here I find, the golden strand that pulls me near,
coming to you, coming closer to my heart, the trail that leads me closer to fear,


fear of finding that all I know is but a shadow of truth, the lack of faith in you,
here I see that beneath my fear is always a need to have you, my love renewed...


of my life, purpose and steadfast knowing of the why and where shall I go,
and in this search, a bolt of light reaches out to find you, I walk, run to follow...


seeking, searching, restless, blindly running to find what was already in me,
I stop and go within - despair has brought me here, it is only now that I see,


you have always been near me, within me, following my misdirections in life,
and it is only in wisdom that I understand that I no longer find that I am a wife,


but a woman, with many truths... I am, and, he who loves me, he will see,
with this clarity and in this personality and soul observation, sees love, sees me.

 

Inside Out

 

IN the midst of the loneliest place we humans inhabit.

the dwelling of heart and soul with peace of mind desolate,

fighting with our inner language for understanding of our life,

with our outer existence concrete bound as we find more strife,

we toil with seeing the surrounding nature with our cynical side,

we may disarm our aggression with peace as we accept not hide,

our unforgiving stance, which we have easily created does harm,

the connection with others, to which love can be given with calm,

Inside out, our minds create more than what we can imagine,

Universal knowledge may lead our way to absolving of our sin,

where we are the judges and jurors the unforgivers of our plight,

and God and his helpers are here to guide and give of their light.

 

Battleground

 

He stands there ready for the slay, ready for the moment,

hands on sword, ear towards the ground, sensing movement,

always on guard to where and when they might appear,

the onslaught of enemies coming from far and from near,

his mind and body preparing for battle, to win at all cost,

stance filled with fear, he awaits for what might be lost,

war... with anger, screaming internal rage, he holds his breath,

and charges at those perceived as opposition, deserving of death,

all at once aggression has been unleashed upon men of war,

all at once the cost of life is less than the love of blood and gore,

standing back, out of breath, he glances and sees... his undoing,

lost brothers, lost souls, lost, a reflection of what he was becoming.

 

Somewhere in the Heart

 

Somewhere in the heart of all our confusion, there is hope.  There is knowledge, truth where we know.  We know.  So we steer towards the light.  Though there are always shadows that lurk near our light vying to keep us off track.  Our purpose is to seek undeterred, to  find our position within the Universe, where we will rise and fall into faith.

 

Once found, we find peace when we walk together with wisdom and hold his hand. 

In this turbulent time we need to ask for understanding.  For our hearts to be free of fear, to love unconditionally.  Embrace the path fraught with challenges, which lead us to evolve.  Understanding this comes with acceptance of the now.  We need to ask God to lift us where we need to be and to be free of unkindness towards ourselves.  

 

Love to you.

 

Listen

 

Listen... I ask your heart to be close to mine, so close it hears my whispers, my cries, my laughs, myself.  Listen closely not to my words, my truth, my need for you to truly know me, then my heart opens, it opens, listen closely, listen...

 

Who Are We?

 

We are not only what we think we are, but our thinking might stop us becoming who we really are...

 

Lightly

 

I must tread lightly, where we fear to go...

This unchartered territory, courage I must show,

Where I will meet you in this place called unfamiliar,

Our paths entwined for reasons unknown and not dissimilar,

Now we awaken from our slumber, an opportunity to connect,

A vision of future of life, true and direct,

We mustn't hide ourselves too far away from this gift,

For life continues to give you love and helps heal that internal rift,

Slow, slow, I go at your speed,

Wherever your heart, whatever you need.

 

Endure

 

Oh what we must endure,

our needs, wants and more,

Now and future knowledge ascertaining,

The how and why and where shall we go,

Only given to us in glimpses, for only God knows,

Our lesson is to see clearly and wisely,

Otherwise we are blameful and miserly,

But all this is not in vain,

For our test is not in one day slain,

Our life the biggest dream consists,

Whether we will perish or persist...

 

Place

 

Here I sit in my state of uninterrupted stillness,

When I dwell in this deep place inside, I find that I reminisce,

For our interaction, free and unhinged with fun and laughter,

Where we connect in absolute abandonment in our true character,

Here and now we find the spirit in us expressed in honesty,

Unburdened by ego, judgement and farcical folly,

Can we make it if we stray far away from our true self,

Where one finds the way without the occurrence of wealth,

Responsible for our part in our architected life,

We play the role according to happy outcome or outer strife,

Go back to where it all began...

That freedom we had when exploring what we can,

You opened and out it all came, uninhibited and free,

As you connected to your heart from you to me.

 

Taker

 

Am I seeing you in your heart space,

Or are you showing me a second face,

One that meets his needs to secure,

Life gives according to his mind lure,

Takes and sees only what he can,

Inside he hides his feelings, he is Man.

 

Human

 

How does one know how to measure and trust in his happiness,

is it man's ability to overcome the many states of his sadness,

And if we place words and statements and let ego be demanding,

We perpetuate and keep our vision focused on heavy misunderstanding...

collect your courage and find your heart as you need strength to feel,

As we seal our fate with the choices we make, look at yourself, be real,

in acceptance that we humans wrestle with imperfections, we mustn't judge,

in allowing anger and disturbance into our truth, we hold and thus begrudge,

yet, in holding tightly to things that we abhor and critique along with blame,

we allow our hearts to grow cold and find that the thing we want to reclaim,

the love and peace, we leave in the silence of the dark place where we retreat,

until, in letting go of the old and those thoughts that lead you here, no defeat,

that all our decisions are based on what we have experienced and know,

in release and letting the hurt dissolve, the love in us evolves, and we grow.

 

WE LOVE

 

We need love; not as a chore, a duty or a must to do,

we need love as it gives us an inkling into the soul of you,

no chance of reprieve of grievances this live has to give,

just opportunity to those whom seek a chance to love and live,

it is not comfortable to exist in earthly delight, those that might,

understand our transient and changeable land, mind and fight,

for our individual right to stand forth and take what is given,

a chance to recover decency, demeanour of what is to be man,

a place in history; educated there are many, love where you can,

many have tried and failed this conquest as money and ego will,

be at the forefront of our trailing tyranny of wrongs and many ills,

standing alone, Christ will vouch that many undo at trial and still,

come alone you will at the end of journey and navigate to and fro,

and is solely up to you, your choice to go undeterred, life in tow...

 

REAP

 

Do they say, what we sow so shall we reap... and so?

This is a question for those who may already know,

That life comes complex, chaotic and‎ incomplete,

So does our understanding of what's buried underneath,

That our many questions remain elusive & unanswered,

what's acceptable today, to use & update the discarded?

We see from our heavily tainted ego, emotional fight,

Vision of progress, or diversion by misguided ‎insight,

If only God sent his truth angel to descend upon us,

We might embrace another way, another plus or versus ,

an altered meaning of existence; of need to surrender,

being alone together, human ‎beings unable to gather,

That only being alone we will be capable of being true,

That heartbreak and indefinite unknowing brings a clue,

For our infinite beingness with ups and downs, me & you,

We would see our world a place of real love and ‎possibility,

Exists within and without, or ill perception ‎provokes senility,

and gives rise to suspicion, cynicism and unresponsiveness,

those whom need to embrace the frail, unloved and restless,

for it is them reflected in our human state and can thus awake,

our non judgmental and unconditional open hearted can make,

even the hardest man feel, be humbled, our humanity is at stake.






 

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